The 9th Anniversary of my 25th Birthday

I'm 34.   I hate saying it.  Yes, I realize that I am still young but I feel like my life is flying by.   The thing is, I am not doing what I thought I'd be doing at this age.   I honestly didn't even think I'd have children at this age.   When I was in high school I would have been shocked if you told me that by the age of 34 I would have been married for 12 years and have 3 children under the age of 7.   I would have been even more shocked to learn that I was a stay at home mom.   Ok, not shocked but probably disgusted. 

I had plans.   I was going to go to college, major in Accounting or Economics and be a Stock Broker or an Accountant.    I wanted to be an accountant for as long as I can remember.   Well, that and a hairdresser.   I love numbers.  I love organized paperwork.  

But, life had another plan for me.   When I was 19 I met my husband.  After 10 months, he asked me to marry him and I said yes.  We married at 21 and owned our first house near Detroit, Michigan by the age of 23.  

This might be a little too much information but I have always had "girlie issues" so I found an OB-GYN in Detroit and she helped me discover that I had endometriosis.  Endometriosis is a medical condition in which cells from the lining of the uterus appear and flouris outside of the uterine cavity, most commonly on the ovaries.  The uterine cavity is lined by endometial cells, which are under the influence of female hormones.  These endometrial-like cells in areas outside the uterus are influenced by hormonal changes and respond in a way that is similar to the cells found inside the uterus.  Symptoms ofter worsen with the menstrual cycle.   (From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia)

I had two surgeries to try and clean it all out but there was just too much and it was in places that it couldn't be cleaned from, like my ovaries.   An inferility specialist did my second surgery and when he came in to talk to us after the surgery we were told basically "If you ever want to have children, now is the time or it may never happen".   I was in shock, I wasn't ready to have a baby - when I got married I had put college on hold until we were settled down somewhere which was now.   We thought long and hard about it and decided that we had better take the dr's advice and try now because we both knew we wanted a child someday, we were just hoping not now, more like in our 30s.  

The rest is pretty much history - I put my life on hold to have children.   Of course I couldn't imagine my life without them but I do get a little sad once in a while when I think about all that haven't accomplished yet and really hoped to.